I was also interviewed by Itv presenter Antoine Allen in 2016 on his website 'AntoineSpeaks' about my childhood.
In the "Early personal life" interview I stated that, "My early life was very restricted as I had a very strict upbringing. I wanted to fit in with my friends in primary school so I was against my parents and was closely associated with a pedophile maid best friend Andre Sterling like a ‘Second mother’ as she was trusted who took me places as well to see my ‘friends’ but it was manipulation on her path for years. How could a pedophile have honestly wished well on me or been like ‘second family’ truly? She wanted me to be a failure in life and be a menace. When I look back at my childhood, I want to inspire children out there and let them know how important it is to tell their parents, guardians or family if someone is child grooming or sexually abusing them even if it means that they would be controlled more. My childhood abuser did not want me to tell my teachers, family, friends or parents and wanted me to see her as my ‘best friend’." I believe that I was 'brainwashed' as a child by that woman who lied to my family about who she had been, after she started abusing me at 5 years old by kissing me & touching my body parts sexually among other things, after starting to work for my parents at 3 years old and the maid introduced me to pornographic tv programs when I was being babysat in my pre-teens. I remember telling a friend in primary school about the situation, but she did not tell the Principal or any teachers. When my parents were not around my childhood home, in my pre-teens for example, I watched a tv show in the early morning hours called 'Queer as Folk' (unsuitable for kids due to the content) with the pedophile as well who told me to never tell my family, trying to seduce my thinking along with a hardcore pornographic tape she bought for me to watch with her when I was barely a teenager. Andre told me to kill my mother, when I was a little girl, so that I would not be controlled anymore but I loved my parents and violence never solves anything.
I started to smoke marijuana casually/secretly (not addicted in any way) at 14 years old when the maid brought it to my home and would drink alcohol all of the time in my adolescence, like many teenagers that wanted to be "adults" before the legal age. I was also a teeny bopper. I would practice djing with my older brother Chris who was part of a dj group in secondary school called 'Siberia Sounds'. I believe that due to the child sexual abuse/child grooming by the maid, I was blinded throughout my childhood and adolescence with regards to decision-making.
As I remember, my parents were very kind people while they were still married, although very strict, and would always visit and invite children from St. Dominic's Children's Home in Belmont, Trinidad with Sister Marina to the main family home I grew up in for breakfast parties after church. The pedophile was so manipulative that she did not want me to see what she was doing as evil or wrong and would often go to church with my family on Sunday mornings for the weekly hour service. She also had a bible in her bedroom at the house. I remember the roof of my childhood home (the only roof in the neighborhood with similar roofs) having several or more corbeaux (Trinidadian Black Vultures) settled on it when I returned home after secondary school daily on afternoons and believe that the woman put witchcraft on my family. I did not tell my parents or family anything until I was 19 years old although I told a classmate in primary school and a friend in secondary school. Although there were times that I got A+ in particular subjects on my report cards, I struggled academically at Maria Regina Grade School because of what transpired with the pedophile although I was the Head Girl in Grade 5.
I believe that most people are former victims of something and want to be an advocate for children around the world, which led me to join the Heroes Foundation (Big Brother, Big Sister) in 2010 although I am no longer a member/volunteer. As an adult, I do not smoke anything and do not drink alcohol casually like before (only on rare & holiday occasions).
Although my older siblings were not victims of the pedophile, my brother Chris Volney was kidnapped at age 21 and put in his car trunk at gun point, left to suffocate there but survived while his ex-girlfriend was raped in his same car in front of him, not being able to help her. He was also in a car accident in the past, but he survived without personal injuries to him, and his car was badly damaged then and recently in 2025, which was not published in the newspapers.
Another experience when I was in my adolescence was when my family friend/bodyguard Derrick Nelson from Tobago was attacked with guns and broke both legs in a dry river when he attempted to escape. He died in the hospital. The reason for his attack was because he got involved with a woman from the courthouse and was seen as the "Perfect Romeo".
I remember the good people who worked for my family like the dead bodyguard who died in the hospital because of the gun injuries, the family police officer Jason Seecharan from Award-winning soca group H20 Phlo and other loyal people such as my childhood driver Andy Absalom. I also had a live at home 'sister' Nicole Ross from St. Dominic's Children's Home in Belmont, Trinidad as a child and adolescent who I have not seen since then.
In 1996 when my family and I were travelling to Europe for the first time, one of the engines of the aircraft caught on fire while in the air and I remember it being traumatizing as a child. The plane had an emergency landing in Barbados.
My favorite leisure books as a child were The Secret Island' as well as Five on Kirrin Island Again by Enid Blyton and best loved video game was 'The Legend of Zelda'.
I have never been married and do not have any children because I do not want to, loving single life forever because I see men as players who want money and power. I have two nieces (14 and 19) and a nephew.
According to the Christian bible, Fornication and Adultery are sins.
I know people who are my friends who do not believe in the same things as me & do not judge them in any way because I know that human beings like myself had different experiences and lifestyles so who am I to assess anyone? Who am I.
For many years in my twenties, I did not believe in God and was agnostic because some people who I trusted when I was in my teenage years, plotted against me after I believed them to be Christians, which was the reason I confided in and went to bible studies with them. They posted bad pictures of me on their facebook profiles with the intention to embarrass me but there were not any videos. They made jokes that they reported and put me on their 'limited profiles'. This happened in 2008, before I became a Poet.
When I was 18 years old, I modelled for an Award-winning Carnival costume band in 2007 in Tnt and was a Brand Ambassador/Promotional model for Sunsilk Hair Brand in Trinidad after being discovered at Inglefield, Ogilvy & Mather Caribbean Ltd. after an audition in 2007-2008. I did photo shoots with Kareem Abdullatif, Laura Ferreira and Annelie Solis when I was in my adolescence as well.
I did not pursue modelling internationally or regionally although I had the opportunity to do more locally after another audition at Triniscene. My parents did not allow me to model before 18 years old although I wanted to. I am 5 ft 6" (back in 2007 that was considered short for modelling) without heels and with 5-inch heels, I am 5 ft 11". I weighed 110-120lbs as a teenager and had the nickname 'Twiggy' by my school friends because of how thin I used to be.
EDUCATIONAL QUALIFICATIONS
I graduated from Maria Regina Grade School before graduating from St. Joseph's Convent, Port-of-Spain where I was the Victrix Ludorum for 3 years in a row. I received a bronze relay medal in the 200m with Nyoka Giles at the Secondary School Championships in Trinidad. Although I struggled academically in my early years because of the child sexual abuse I secretly endured by the pedophile maid, at CXC CSEC equivalent to O'Levels, I received 5 A's (I's) in English Language (Distinction), English Literature, Mathematics, Principles of Business and Spanish while I got II's in Biology, Caribbean History and French. I almost received a I (A) in Biology. At CXC Cape equivalent to A'levels, I received a I (A) in Caribbean Studies, I (A) in Communication Studies, a II (B) in Sociology and two III's in other subjects, graduating with my secondary school diploma in 2007. I received a Metaphysics certificate at FHEQ Level 4 in 2011 and an Undergraduate Advanced diploma at FHEQ Level 6 (with distinction) in Data & Systems Analysis at Oxford University's Department for Continuing Education from 2012-2013. I studied Computer Science & Poetry at the University of the West Indies Mona Campus in Jamaica for 1 year but don't have a degree in it. I graduated from the University of the West Indies with a Public Relations diploma and a Bachelor's degree in Sociology, minor in Psychology then changed the minor to Communication Studies so I did a mixture of Sociology, Statistics, Psychology, Social Work, Poetry, Communication Studies and other courses. I graduated in 2020 with Second Class Honours based on the UWI GPA Grading Scale after 2014, where before I would have had a higher degree classification. I'm currently pursuing my first master's degree.
My great-grandfather Joseph Henry Louis Volney was from St. Lucia.
I found out that information recently when researching about my family background and did not know about that when I was younger. I encourage my fans/friends to do research on your families as well as you may find something interesting.
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